Look inside to find the answer. You hear this all the time. But, your inside can at times be very noisy, it can be difficult to hear what your heart is trying to tell you. Your mind can interfere with what your heart and soul speak. To look inside and connect with yourself, with the source of creation to find answers is not an easy enterprise, but one very worth your time. Taking pause to reflect is important, to be thankful and to connect with creation. My question du jour is how to use my creativity, talents and abilities to help others and bring success into my life. So I have begun to meditate again. Something I have not done in a very long time.
This morning I sat very still and very quietly outside and thanked the source of all creation for everything I have and everything I am; for protecting those who came before me so that I could have this “now”, this moment to connect, thank, be, question and reflect. I expressed gratitude for all the love I now have in my life and for the inner strength and knowledge I have gained. I sat quietly for twenty minutes and listened to the nature around me; the birds waking up, the wind rustling through the branches and the leaves. I asked to continue to be given strength to find my path and stay steadfast upon it. I asked to be given the strength to forgive. I asked to be forgiven.
So after reflection, and now doing this same exercise with some frequency over the past month or so I believe I need to write. I need to do it to help others, but in this digital age so few people take the time to read anymore. Maybe I need to write in order to read aloud. This may sound crazy, but my past experiences with this have all been positive. Many of my close friends and loved ones who do not particularly enjoy reading or cant for one reason or another have asked that I read aloud to them. I could be reading a novel, a child’s book or even something I have personally wrote – it seems to be a connecting experience, sharing a piece of work simultaneously. You can laugh together, cry together, have an adventure, travel the world together – fiction, non-fiction, poetry – its limitless. So maybe a pod-cast? I don’t know yet, I still need to meditate further to figure out the correct path.
Even through all my recent turmoil, pain and upheaval I have been truly blessed and need to remember to remain in a constant state of gratitude for this. Not every one is loved, not everyone gets another chance. My journey has just begun. Once again I am staring at a blank page – a new beginning, frightening but exciting. But, this beginning is different. It has emanated from a place of strength, resilience, growth, forgiveness, self-acceptance, perseverance and joy.
I couldn’t ask for a better, fresher, healthier start. I am going to blossom. I can feel it.