A new life, a new place, a new state, a new climate, a new group of friends, a new dog, a new fitness regime, and now finally a new blog entry… new is good and change can be positive and healthy even though it may be scary.
People keep telling me it will take two years before I will comfortably call California my home – adjusting to a new culture, terrain, surroundings, people etc. I’m not sure if it will take me quite that long, but it helps to know these growing pains are more than normal. I’ve been here almost four months now and with each passing day I feel more relaxed and at home.
The past is finally just that… the past. I may still have things to process but that is my individual journey which may or may not be shared on this blog as appropriate. I will no longer bring it into my present by dwelling on it, or worrying about how it may effect my future.
I am learning mindfulness and doing yoga almost daily (in the most AMAZING studio). I hike about once a week as well since San Diego is chock full of beautiful places to explore. These things are incredibly grounding along with returning to blogging. I find my home in writing.
So this brings me to another lesson about my physical health and weight loss. The stress of the move and changes had me drop another 10lbs since I got here. This was not healthy and I was not trying to lose more weight.
My appetite is returning and being physically active in such a wonderful climate is no longer a chore. I don’t have to “go to the gym”. For those of you who are reading and struggling with weight loss, the take away from this is just that seeing things in a different way or a new environment may be what your mind and body are craving and needing – even just a temporary change (not as drastic as mine necessarily – LOL) to gain perspective.
When you step back and become the observer of your own life, emotions, thoughts, decisions and behaviors, change, albeit frightening almost seems inevitable an necessary for growth.
“No day but today!” – Jonathan Larson. If you wait for motivation you may be waiting a very long time. Sometimes you just have to “do”. Make that push. Make that change. Take that first step on your unwritten journey.
I am not going to sugar coat it and say this is an easy wonderful process chock full of rainbows and unicorns – it is not. It is difficult, arduous and at times very painful; but nothing worth anything in life comes easily. During this process patience is a necessary virtue as everything changes at its own pace. Trust that your higher power (if you believe there is one), will bring you exactly where you need to be, when you need to be there. But, faith I believe is not entirely enough to exact change. You must put forth an equal or greater amount of mental, emotional and physical effort and energy to reach your destination.
I cannot emphasize enough how important it is that during this process you do not criticize or judge your progress. Some days may be one step forward and two back. The important thing is that you persevere. Never give up. The rest is still unwritten;